Wow – you’ve recently turned 3! I really am not too sure where the last 36 months have gone.
Let’s rewind 4 years – we were in the middle of a house move at this time, April 2013 and what they say is true – new house, new baby.
I became pregnant with you in July 2013. I knew you were in my tummy really early and I showed daddy the pink line (you’ll understand this once you’re older) on a Saturday morning in August 2013. He was so happy – tentative because so much could still go wrong – but so happy!
Telling auntie Linny was easy, she was expecting it! She made mummy take another test, just to double check and there it was – in numbers and words – 3-4 weeks pregnant! This is what we used to tell nanny and grandad “me” (your current name for them). They were over the moon – also a little tentative of course – but ecstatic, nanny and granddad “woof woof” too!
Those first 3 months were full of excitement – we took you on your first holiday when you were just the size of a poppy seed – only to north Wales but it was a fab few days – with daddy and nanny and grandad Me. Things got a bit tricky when you’d been inside mummy for about 12 weeks but we got through it and although mummy had to go to hospital lots of times for them to keep checking you while I was pregnant, you arrived safe and sound at 12:19am on a Friday in April 2014 weighing a tiny 5lbs 9oz.
I had to have a little operation to get you out in the end so it was daddy who held and cuddled you first – both mummy and daddy got to see you quickly as the midwife showed you to us, but daddy had to look after you while the doctors made mummy better after having you.
Daddy cradled you for a long time while you both waited for mummy – he told you how special you were, he told you how much we both loved you and how we were both going to look after you the best we could. Eventually, once mummy was pushed into the room, out little family of 3 was complete.
There have been other people along the way who continue to hold a special place in your heart and who certainly hold you very dear in their hearts – nanny and grandad me, nanny and grandad woof woof, auntie Linny and uncle Dan and Uncle Nick. They were there from the start and continue to be a huge part of your life right now.
So let’s fast forward, quite quickly, because there’s a lot to cram in from the last 3 years!
You grew, and grew! You rarely slept! You didn’t do what any of the baby books said you’d do – you are a beautifully unique, defiant, independent, stubborn, happy, loving, amazing little man and we could not be more proud of you. I hope, if you want to, one day you will experience life as a daddy – you’ll find out it’s the hardest job in the world (along with being a mummy of course!) but it’s the most rewarding – you never cease to amaze us every single day – you make us laugh, cry, melt, gasp and wonder at every thing you do and say.
Our lives without you would be less bright, less joyful, less rewarding – in fact though the last 3 years have gone in a flash, I can barely remember a time when you weren’t an amazing part of our lives. My goodness you keep us on our toes, now as much as ever –the sleepless nights have been replaced by early mornings (and sometimes late nights!), fun-filled (and sometimes rather stressful!) days – usually involving a stick of some type, den-building, climbing something you shouldn’t and of course picking up frogs and worms and mud and anything else you really probably should leave well alone!
Your inquisitive little mind is forever questioning things – right now you have so many questions, mostly starting with where and why, which we try to answer as best we can though sometimes it’s difficult to provide you with the detail you insist upon! Your words and sentences are coming on too – you have an ever-expanding vocabulary which amazes us and you are trying so hard to put together your ideas and sometimes it’s still a little tricky to understand everything you are saying.
I especially love how cross you become when we don’t quite get what you are saying and you get louder and then shout it at us as though you’re in a foreign country and wish the natives to understand!
Life isn’t always so rosy – when you were just 14 months old, you were poorly, very suddenly and mummy and daddy didn’t know what had caused it. That was your first epileptic seizure – you’ve had a good few more since then, but we’re learning to live with you having epilepsy. You have a seizure every so often now thanks to the medicine you have to take every morning and every night which helps to stop you having too many. You know what, mummy and daddy have come to realise this is just part of you – you have this condition, which you may or may not grow out of, but we’ll deal with it – we’ll do whatever we can to make it easy for you to live with it; you’ll be fine!
So what else have mummy and daddy learnt from the last 3 years? We’ve learnt that life is unpredictable. Life doesn’t follow a set of rules or guidelines. You can develop routines but they have to change every so often. Life can be great but there are a fair few curve balls thrown your way which you must find a way to overcome – it’s what makes you appreciate the great times! Life as a mummy or daddy, as I’ve already said, is the hardest job in the world – you’re on call 24/7 – in the last 36 months, mummy and daddy have been your carers, your nurses, your chefs, your cleaners, your taxi drivers, your playmates and your champions – we encourage you to become the best little human you can be, we cheer you on to succeed in every challenge you try to overcome and we pray that you will be happy along whichever path life takes you.
Most importantly, mummy and daddy have been your teachers – we’ve tried and we continue to try to teach you right from wrong every day, we teach you it’s ok to make mistakes and we teach you how to overcome them, we teach you that life isn’t always fair but that it’s ok to feel frustrated with that, we’re teaching you how to evolve into the amazing little man you are becoming. And you know what, you’re teaching us an awful lot more than you could ever realise – you’re teaching us how to be a good mummy and daddy – we are better people for being your mummy and daddy and for that we will be forever in your debt!
So, now you are 3 and we’re about to embark on the next few steps in our journey – the 3 of us together. Just around the corner is nursery school – 5 mornings a week in school with other people trying to teach you. But I want you to remember no matter who is in your life, no matter who is trying to teach you, care for you, encourage you, knock you down, help you up, support you, be there for you, love you, there will be no-one more focused on you than your mummy and daddy.
You, Noah, are our world and we will always be here for you.